I’ve felt for the last decade or so that I’ve been on a somewhat delayed spiritual journey.
I recently came across a post on skokti’s blog that really resonated with me. I’ve seen so many queer men run away from their spiritual side and their spiritual needs because of agendas imposed on us by some religions. I too experienced much of this when I was younger and spent many years in the confusion over spirituality and religion. I thought that the two concepts had no room for me.
Yet, as I’ve gotten older, I’ve experienced more forms of energy as part of my consciousness. I’ve come to see that this energy allows me to get out of the prison of my mind and into other forms of perception and awareness. I started to see that life wasn’t a single path to a goal; rather, it is a series of paths many of which are parallel and don’t really go anywhere physical. Most importantly, I’ve experienced that consciousness transcends my body. I believe that consciousness doesn’t go away after death. Our body will at some point give out, but the sense of self and awareness does not depend on the body. I stopped being afraid of death and became aware of something that I can’t quantify but is more than life.
I found this passage from shokti’s post particularly relevant:
When we strip away the layers of fear, shame, guilt, pain and confusion that have been the story of human life, and especially gay life, for so very long, we will get to the SELF. Harry Hay, one of the originators of the radical faerie culture, believed gay men were naturally attuned to ‘subject-subject consciousness’ – ie we empathise with others as being the same as ourselves, not as ‘objects’ separate from us. It is hard to find evidence that this is the case – gay life seems to be built on objectification these days, with gay media and cruise sites reducing us all to little more than beautiful sexual creatures and magnifying our feelings of inadequacy. But the potential is in us to break through such illusions. Great visionaries of gay love such as Walt Whitman and Edward Carpenter saw our potential as warriors of love and peace in the human family. These are the people we should be talking about, every young gay man ought to know about their ideas. And they also ought to know that gay people have been the spiritual leaders of humanity across the globe since ancient times, then we might be more inclined to explore our own spirit, instead of denying our souls at the same time as reaching for the tina pipe or syringe (which takes us into our soul energy, where all the bliss we seeks resides). The objectification and cold-heartedness of gay life needs to be revealed as the sham it is. We are a people born to love and to evolve, it is time our queer culture supported us to find out exactly who we are.
We’ve been subjected to enough hate from others, why do we reinforce it on ourselves?