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Valentine’s Day

Posted by ed on February 13, 2014
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IMGP1272-smSo Valentine’s day is Friday.

This holiday is usually associated with romantic love or bloody massacres (or both!) I’m kinda a romantic at heart. I love the support, smooching, touching and physical and emotional intimacy that romantic love can provide. I’m also aware that romantic love is culturally loaded and full of unrealistic expectations. Valentine’s day is also really hard for those of us that choose an alternate path for our intimate fulfillment. Those of us in multiple relationships have a scheduling challenge! But, I’m actually OK with the paradox that is Valentine’s day.

There’s an aspect of Valentine’s day that I’m choosing to celebrate this year – I’m going to celebrate my love for myself on Friday. This exercise can be a radical practice of self care. It can heal our core while flying in the face of cultural expectations. While everyone else is out with romantic dinners and flowers, I’m going to be happily staying home alone!

I believe that it’s impossible to accept love into our life unless we can love ourselves. Once we develop the connection with self we can make room for love from another. If we don’t think we deserve to be loved how can we accept that love from someone else?

My self-love practice is more about acceptance than anything else. I practice accepting myself as I am – not how I think I should be. I see myself as desirable – not from a narcissistic perspective, but from a perspective of acceptance. I’m certainly not better than anyone else, but I’m also no worse than anyone else. I’m quite happy with who I am.

I’m planning to spend the evening with myself and see where I want to go. I don’t have any agenda. I’ll probably start with a short meditation to check in after the day and listen to my body, my mind and my spirit. They’ll inform me of where I need to go and what I feel like doing. I’m sure that there will be some self pleasuring going on, but, again, I’m purposefully avoiding any agenda. I may have an intense edging session or I may just have some slow, subdued with my body.

I’ll probably spend a lot of time connecting with my eyes in a mirror. I find this practice very powerful as a way of affirming myself. I’m going to go out and get a really nice bar of deep dark chocolate and savor that all evening! I may spend some time with a mantra of affirmation. I may take a relaxing bubble bath. I may sit in the candlelight and howl. I really don’t know. What I do know is that this Valentine’s day is about loving someone really important to me – myself!

Genital Shame

Posted by ed on September 12, 2013
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Junk.

What did that term become popular?

I’m sorry but neither my penis, my balls nor even my asshole is junk.

Culturally we seem to have three primary ways of referring to our genitals: clinical, vulgar or cute. I really don’t like any of these but I’ve settled on clinical. Cute terms are just too dismissive and juvenile and vulgar terms don’t recognize that our genitals have any value.

Genital shame is real. I encounter feelings of genital shame regularly in my work. We’ve categorized the penis as banal, greedy and without feeling. No wonder that so many of us experience a lack of feeling from our genitals.

A colleague, Bruce P. Grether recently wrote Penis Intelligence of Heart. I found Bruce’s words helpful:

A common cliché is that “men think with their penis” and this usually implies that it makes men do stupid or awful things. The reality behind this is that men feel with their penises, and are often ill-equipped to deal with feelings, due to conditioning about “masculinity” as well as personal history.

Yet in truth, as a human male, your penis is not at all the superficial, greedy and misleading organ that it is often labeled and assumed to actually be. In reality what often makes men do stupid things when driven by desire is not the penis itself. It is largely the conditioning that teaches men to believe that they must get sexual pleasure at the expense of someone else, regardless of consequences, and that sexuality is a way to prove something about yourself.

Limitless Bliss Beyond Understanding is available to any man through Mindful Masturbation—and this changes the entire equation, just as it changes the man himself.

In fact, it is not the brain (which many consider the seat of intelligence) that is your most powerful creative organ (and not even your magnificent penis)—rather, it is your heart. Thus the great poet and philosopher James Broughton described the penis as “the exposed tip of the heart.” This gives some hint of the genuine sensitivity, tenderness and vulnerability of the actual penis. This also suggests its incredible phallic power, as the heart in your chest has been found to exert a tremendous electromagnetic field.

Ancient Egyptians spoke of a most important quality they called “Intelligence of Heart,” akin to intuition, immediacy and authenticity, or self-trust. They considered Intelligence of Heart to be a key faculty of healthy and functional human awareness. They also considered the phallus to be a spiritual umbilical cord that connected the male body with Source. The phallus was further considered the vertical axis that connected the Earth with the Sky, Below with Above.

This tool-box of imagery points to a literal reality that is not symbolic.

To the ancients such truth was immediate and experiential in the human body in relation to the world that was its context. When you break free of social and cultural conditioning that limits you to a jokey dismissive attitude on the subject, your penis is actually an organ of Intelligence of Heart. This is not an intellectual or mental exercise—rather, it’s most likely to occur when you are able to surrender yourself to prolonged and intense high quality intervals of erotic ecstasy. This is not a struggle for therapeutic benefits, though it may require effort and persistence; rather, simply allow the ecstasy itself to do the transformational work.

The head of your penis is emotionally “smarter” than the head on your shoulders!

The luminous glow of sustained genital bliss brings you back into your body; it brings you into the present moment; it returns you from your mind to here and now… if you allow it to do the magnificent, glorious, even miraculous job for which evolution has designed it! Long ago, such pleasure may have been designed to entice you into reproducing.

However your own selective evolution has transformed the penis into an organ that is itself evolutionary when used this way—for personal growth and conscious evolution. The Intelligence of Heart of your penis can be transformational; such ecstasy helps you to become the kind of man you long to be in the depth of your soul.

Mindful Masturbation is the substrate, the baseline practice for Male Erotic Alchemy, which actually deploys pure penile pleasure as self-love to expand your consciousness, open your heart, bring you into awareness of your innate wholeness, and offer you an actual taste of your Oneness with All Things.

All of this = your Intelligence of Heart!

When the penis is perceived as greedy and misleading it’s not only due to, as Bruce mentions, “conditioning that teaches men to believe that they must get sexual pleasure at the expense of someone else” it’s also due to the shame that we feel about sexuality and, at times, our genitals. When we can express our creativity and our heart through our penis the sense of shame that so many of us experience can vanish.

Not only did James Broughton describe the penis as “the exposed tip of the heart”, he also said, “there is only ONE temple in the world and that is the human body”, and that “the proper activity in a temple is worship. Share your holiness. Visit each other’s temples.” When we look at our sexual expression as holy perceptions can dramatically change. We can experience being fully in our body not only as an act of worship but as a way to counteract all those feelings of shame that have built up over the years.

So, how to begin this journey? A great place to begin is to look at what your genitals might say to you. Write down the words and look at how those feelings of shame work both ways. Make amends with your genitals by being loving and tender. Open the connection between your heart and your penis – simply by placing one hand in each area of the body and feel the connection. Let go of expectations and welcome in the bliss that can be accessed through your genitals.

Measuring Up

Posted by ed on August 2, 2013
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post130802Body Dysmorphia (not liking our own body) is very common in men. There are many parts of the body that we can feel shame around, but penis size is one of, if not the most common concern.

A lot of us compare ourselves to images of naked men that we may see often. Most of these images are from porn. So we’re trying to compare ourselves to a group of men who have auditioned and were selected solely for the look of their bodies. Hmmm, something is wrong here!

So what about the average guy. How big is the average cock? Many studies have tried to answer this question, but getting accurate information is hard since most guys will inflate the dimensions. Here’s an interesting, if statistically limited, study that did a good job to obtain accurate information.

And, yes, the numbers are much smaller than most of us thought. I know it’s easier said than done, but we can learn to be happy with what we have!

Being Ourselves Online

Posted by ed on May 10, 2011
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My Asspig ProfileThe recent newsletter about connection really seems to have struck a chord. I was thinking more about this and realized that many of us have online profiles. Some are for dating others are for hookups and others are just for friends. Many of us have also experienced meeting people online.

Yet how many of our online profiles are true reflections of who we are? Every time we pretend to be someone we’re not are we just furthering our own self doubt? Think about it – when we say we’re someone else isn’t that just saying “I don’t like who I am, so I’ll just pretend to be someone else.”

OK, full disclosure time. I only have one active online profile. It’s on Asspig - a hookup site for guys who like butt play. It may not be everyone’s thing but it’s mine. If you click on the thumbnail to the left you’ll see my entire profile. (It’s a jpg, so none of the links and features will work.) The profile is a pretty accurate description of me and what I’m looking for – at least what I’m looking for on Asspig!

I’ve spoken with many guys who have met people online and they clearly weren’t who they purported to be. In some cases, the difference was staggering! I fail to understand how someone who bends the truth to such an extent could ever meet someone. It’s like announcing at the beginning “I’m a liar and I hate who I am. Let’s go play!” I don’t think so!

Then many of these people who have stretched the truth wonder why they’re not meeting anyone and get bitter. I believe that if we just we true to who we are, we would increase our chances of meeting people we could genuinely connect with.

Use the text section to let people know what you like or what you’re looking for. Use photos that are flattering and also fairly recent. Give someone an idea of who you are now – not who you were 10 years ago. You may be surprised how many other people really want to meet the real you!

I’m Not My Type

Posted by ed on September 3, 2010
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I’m Not My Type

So many of us go through life feeling that we’re undesirable. We look at ourselves in the mirror and conclude that no one could possibly find us attractive. I see this all the time when coaching men. While there are many factors that can contribute to this feeling, I believe that, for many of us who identify as gay or queer, it’s because we make the mistaken assumption that everyone is attracted to the same ‘type’ that we’re attracted to and we aren’t that type.

Every time we look at ourselves in the mirror we see someone who we’re not attracted to. We see a body type that is not our ideal. In many cases our body type is the opposite of what we’re attracted to. The little guy wants the big guy. The smooth guy wants the hairy guy. We don’t see how someone could be attracted to us because we’re not.

When we believe this we have a hard time letting in interest from others. When someone we find attractive expresses an interest in us we question how this other rational, attractive person could have any interest in us. We’re so focused on all our shortcomings that we assume everyone only sees those shortcomings too. Yet the reality is that no one is as hard on ourselves as we are. Maybe this other attractive person is attracted to you because you’re just their type!

I’ve seen this in myself. For many years, I went through life ashamed of my body. I always felt too big, too fat. I didn’t like the way my body looked. I was always attracted to thinner people and assumed that everyone was attracted to the same type and that I was undesirable. Later in life I realized that many people are attracted to larger men like me. I had friends tell me that people were checking me out and I was completely unaware of it because of my mistaken assumptions. It goes to prove that old adage that there’s someone for everyone.

Understanding that other people find us attractive – regardless of how we feel about ourselves is a step toward coming to terms with our bodies. For every person who thinks they’re too old there’s someone looking for an older person. For every person who thinks they’re too thin, there’s someone looking for thin people.

The difficulty begins when we start to compare ourselves to cultural norms without realizing that those cultural norms change over time. It’s not that long ago when the burly “Marlboro Man” type was all the rage. Now everyone is shaving everywhere! Tastes change and magic happens when we begin to see ourselves as worthy of desire along with everyone else!

Penis Size

Posted by ed on June 30, 2010
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Almost every man in our culture is concerned about the size of his penis.

I remember the scene vividly even though it was over 30 years ago. It way my first high school PE class. This was back in a time when we were FORCED to change before class and shower afterward. I remember PE because it’s where I (and I assume most men) learned about locker room behavior. I learned to secretly check out the other guys and compare their penises to mine. Every guy does it and we all hope we don’t get caught!

Every man, of any sexual orientation, checks out other naked men. Most of the time we’re looking for one thing and one thing only: how big is he compared to me? The thing many of us don’t realize is that this isn’t a fair comparison. When you’re looking at someone else you’re looking at a slight downward angle. When you’re looking at yourself you’re looking almost straight down. These aren’t the same angles; accordingly, you have a different perspective looking at yourself compared to looking at someone else. Keep that in mind the next time you sneak a look!

I’ve worked with men who have concerns about penis size. (No, not all of these men were concerned about their penis being too small – more on that later.) The thing to look at is does this part of your body give you pleasure. Does it feel good? Does it give your partner pleasure? In other words, rather than looking at the size of your penis, take a look at its function. Be happy that your penis makes you and your partner happy.

I’ve also worked with men who complain that their penis is too big. Many of these men find it difficult for others to see them as men; rather, their experience is that of a person attached to a large penis. Many of these men experience popularity but that popularity is only due to their penis – not to who these men are as people. One man recently told me, “I’d actually like for someone to see me and get to know me as a whole person – not just my penis.”

As long as we view our penis as separate from ourselves as men, we’ll continue to experience shame around this part of our body. When we look at this part of the body just like any other part of the body and see ourselves as an integrated, whole person the shame begins to go away.